Hi and welcome to my emotional food journey.
Here is a long list of things that helped me stop binge eating.
I AM SO, SO SORRY TO TELL YOU THIS IS NOT HOW IT WORKS.
Thankfully I was wrong!!!
I was willing to try, and that willingness went a long way.
This is also great if you suck at accepting compliments).
I am not a doctor or a therapist.
My qualifications for writing this post are simply that these things helped me.
This is (unfortunately) not a before and after picture.
Meal tracking helped me stop binge eating.
Im not living a mythical happily ever after.
I still struggle with food and body image and my emotions.
But Im doing a lot better.
I have more tools to help myself when I mess up.
A year ago I was binge eating every day, at least once a day.
It was so bad that my doctor wanted me to be in a day program.
Today, on a weekly basis, I usually dont binge eat.
At least not regularly.
I mess up, thats part of recovery.
I didnt get totally derailed and thrown off by making a mistake.
The instances are rare and singular.
Im a lot better and Im becoming okay with not being perfect.
Hi and welcome to my emotional food journey.
Here is a very long list of things that have helped me in the last year:
1.
I attempt to be a cheerleader for myself.
Its been a hobby I can immerse myself in spiritually, physically, and emotionally.
THIS IS A BIG ONE.
I adopted the idea that there are no good and bad foods.
THIS WAS SO HARD.I really believed there were good and bad foods.
Kale and juices were good, junk food, sugar, and carbs were bad.
If I want pizza, I eat pizza.
Theyve lost their appeal to me completely, which seemed unimaginable a year ago.
ANOTHER HARD ONE.I stopped counting calories.
THIS WAS ALSO SO HARD.I stopped gradually.
One week I just deleted MyFitnessPal from my phone.
I learned to trust my dietician and her meal plan, which was based on exchanges, not calories.
You will aim for 1500 calories the next day.
I also stopped weighing myself.
Historically for me, this obsession would lead to restricting, which would inevitably lead to overeating or binging.
Anyone who works in sales knows this is true.We make decisions based on our intuition and emotional experience.
We think we use information to make decisions, but we actually use information to justify our gut feeling.
This is all to say humans are complicated!This is normal and expected.
You didnt just start binge eating because youre a dumbass or you dont have willpower.
I started prioritizing sleep.
Getting enough sleep makes me feel sane.
This is called perfectionism, and you probably have it.
I would fail, freak out, and binge again to comfort myself.
I learned about the binge restrict cycle.
I thought it was just me.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BD8LISak4wT/?tagged=bingerestrictcycle
34.
I have a lot of very difficult conversations with my therapist.
When it comes to conflict, Im an avoider.
I hate talking about difficult topics and I cry and feel upset and anxious when I do.
WHAT A FUCKIN RELIEF.
I scroll through them when Im having a difficult day.
At least I try not to.
I am compassionate with myself when Im not perfect.Recovery is not linear.
I grocery shop knowing what I will eat every day of the following week.
I go with the flow.I eat a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast every day.
of goat cheese).
Before, Id be worried it was too small and Id still be hungry.
It took me a long time to trust myself to eat when I was hungry!!!
If I want to eat something and I recognize that I am not feeling hunger, I journal.
It doesnt actually feel that bad.
Its not such a big deal.
Im watching a lot ofThis is Usright now.Im searching outsad booksand watching sad movies and crying over fictional characters.
It feels like working out.
I can feel that its something I need to do, so I do it.
