Im not the kind of girl who can wear sweatpants and a pajama shirt in front of complete strangers.
Because I want to distance myself from my real self as much as possible.
Im the kind of girl who hears compliments about how beautiful I look and brushes them off.
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Im not the kind of girl who loves herself.
Who wouldnt change a thing about herself, even if she could.
So why does she look so much better than me?
I hate thinking like that.
I hate being so insecure.
I wish I loved the way I looked.
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I wish I thought I was pretty.
I wish I could take a picture without scrutinizing every feature on my face.
And, yes, there are days when I feel confident.
When I catch myself in good lighting and feel sexy AF.
When I think that anyone would be lucky to have me, that Im someone worthwhile.
But then the next day, Im right back at square one.
Im back to hating myself, to wondering how anyone could ever call me pretty.
I want to change this destructive way of thinking.
I want to love the girl I see in the mirror.
Even though I know every girl Ive ever met is goddamn gorgeous.
