You deserve the best.
You deserve someone better.
And that isnt me.
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Updated 11 months ago,June 11, 2024
This will never be easy to admit.
You deserve someone better.
I am sorry I am not that someone.
Our story was something so beautiful when it started.
We were both two souls who were perfectly broken.
Im not even sure the both of us were looking for love, but we did find each other.
And I thought I was ready for anything.
I thought I could finally accept love in its most glorious form.
I was getting there, but I didnt realize, I wasnt there yet.
For a moment there, you made me feel like I was worthy of everything.
And then I got scared, there it goes again.
The familiar feeling creeping in, the idea that I wasnot good enough.
Yes you loved me, yes you did.
But it was never about that, it was about my lack of love towards myself.
And there were a lot of things to consider too.
My prince, you were so brave.
But Im sorry, I wasnt.
And I really wanted to be the one to have your name.
And I still want to be that woman for you.
But I had my chance, and I didnt claim it.
But in my desperate attempt to make you stay, you became weary of me.
I becameselfish, and refused to let you go, even when you asked that of me.
Everything between us became so unsteady, it felt like walking on eggshells.
We had our highs, but then sure enough, the lows followed.
I thought I was doing enough.
I was more critical of myself.
I thought somehow I was getting through you.
But all the hurt I caused somehow poisoned the both of us.
Things got ugly, we were hurting each other.
We werent one anymore.
And I ceased to be your peace.
It was always hit or miss.
And most of the time, I missed.
I tried and I tried but you were so hurt, you couldnt see that anymore.
It seemed like all the love we once had to give was nowhere to be found anymore.
As I continued to battle with my desperation, I did more things that would drive you away.
And that was where I became successful.
I sit here, conceding.
Maybe I really am not good enough for you.
I sit here, crushed with my own selfishness.
Time is something youre already lacking, and yet I wasted it.
I dont know what to do but cry anymore.
To let you go, because Im not good for your heart anymore.
And it hurts, but nothing hurts more than watching you go down in flames I set.
For once maybe I could do something good.
As painful as it may be, my love, you are free.
I could love you forever, but sometimes love isnt enough.
You deserve the best.
You deserve someone better.
And that isnt me.
