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Updated 5 years ago,January 3, 2020
Do you remember the night we met?
In the beginning you hadall of me, then most of me.
As time went by, you hadsome and now you have none of me.
Joshua Rawson-Harris
If only that were possible.
You were the drug that gave me immediate, short-term comfort.
We were weak; we made each other weaker.
I thought we had a connection when it was only selfishness on our parts.
It was the brevity of our time together that left me mystified with you.
We thrived on drama; we lived for chaos.
We were a mess.
We settled for what we thought was worth much more.
You and I both hurt each other over and over again, but you hurt me more.
We swore that we wouldnt repeat it, but we never kept our promise.
You broke me so completely that one December night.
You left me when I needed you the most.
We were terrible to each other and we were bad for each other.
We brought out the worst in each other.
I wanted you to fix me, but I didnt realize that you were a little broken too.
We assumed we were the answer to each others destiny, but we were daydreaming in delusions.
Being with you never made me want to become a better person.
Instead, I think I made you a little worse the more we stayed together.
You taught me that it is not necessary for everything to work out.
You proved it right.
My naive heart will miss your presence, but my rational mind will also understand.
Every time I went back to you, I hated myself a little more.
I hate that at one point I thought I could love you.
That is the difference between you and me.
That is why I am not sorry for ghosting you.
I wish you well, but I do not wish you in my life.
