Thats why it takes me so long to answer.
What looks casual but not lazy?
What looks attractive but not like Im trying too hard?
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I want to hint at my feelings, but I dont want to come across as clingy.
I dont want to look desperate, like Im trying too hard, like Im dying for their attention.
Thats why I overthink the stupidest things.
Should Iliketheir newest photo on Instagram or have Ilikedtoo many in a row already?
When they look at me for a little too long, I overthink the significance of their glances.
Is food stuck between my teeth, juice staining my shirt, lipstick smudged across my face?
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Are they looking because they already caughtmelooking?
Or are they staring for a deeper reason?
Are they thinking about how to ask me out, how to turn our friendship into something official?
When they send a text message asking whats up, I overthink what those two little words mean.
Are they trying to ask me if Im free so we can hang out?
Are they sitting there, wondering what Im doing and who Im with because they hope Im alone?
Or are they just bored and sending out texts to anyone who will answer?
When that same person compliments me on the way that I look, I overthink their intentions.
Are they just being polite, trying to make conversation?
Do they talk like this to every other girl or am I the only one?
I overthink what it means when someone hugs me hello and when they give me a wave instead.
When I have strong feelings for someone, I overthink every little thing.
My brain never gives me a moment of rest.
It drives me toward insanity.
