It takes so much courage and strength to live with anxiety.
It takes so much work.
When Im able to have a conversation while looking the other person directly in the eyes.
Jordan Sanchez
When Im able to walk up to a complete stranger and ask them a question.
When Im able to socialize without feeling a pit in my stomach and sweat forming across my brows.
On those days, I feel like myanxietyis slowly disappearing.
Like I am gradually growing into a person who is comfortable inside of their own skin.
And then the inevitable will happen.
My anxiety will return without warning.
Jordan Sanchez
I will go right back to overanalyzing the way someone looked at me ordidntlook at me.
During those moments, I will feel like Im taking a step backward.
I will feel like all of the progress IthoughtI made has disappeared.
My anxiety is never going to leave me alone.
I am never going to get rid of it completely.
It will make up for its absence by killing me inside.
I know I should enjoy those rare moments when my anxiety gives me a break from its symptoms.
I should cherish them while they last because they never last long.
But those moments give me a taste of what its like to be normal.
To speak without worrying about what others might say behind my back.
To be myself without fear of thewhat ifs.
Its so much easier to have a simple conversation.
Its so much easier to speak my mind.
Its so much easier to breathe.
Its so much easier to exist.
