I think you knew deep down, I could have given you everything.
Maybe you were too scared to give it a shot.
Maybe you weren’t strong enough to try.
Sam Burriss
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Updated 7 years ago,November 14, 2017
You didnt really try, you know.
A couple of months isnt trying.
A few phone calls isnt trying.
And a phone call to end it wasnt trying either.
I offered you support.
I told you Im a giver, and thats all that I did.
Sam Burriss
But what were you doing when I was consoling you, telling you that you would be okay?
How were you making me feel better?
I thought you were different.
You made me light up in a way that I havent in so long.
And you were a blessing, in that sense.
But you didnt give me what I truly needed.
You didnt give me what I now know I want in a partner.
When you were calling me complaining about your days, I didnt think anything of it.
I just talked you through it.
And of course, you were the one to end it.
You said it was because you were stressed, or confused, or whatever the hell you said.
You said it wasnt me.
And I get it.
I understand to some extent.
We dont even know who we are yet.
But you never really got to know me.
Our phone calls could last 4 hours at once.
But we only talked about your life.
About your family and your struggles.
And for all the months we talked and saw one another, I dont remember ever complaining to you.
I guess I brushed away my gut feeling that it wasnt going to work.
Because I really liked you.
And I believed you when you said you liked me too.
And I believed you when you promised me, you promised me you wouldnt blindside me.
But it isnt a perfect world.
You got scared or freaked out.
And maybe thats all it was.
Maybe thats the only reason you gave up on me.
But truthfully, I dont believe that one bit.
I dont believe it because you cried on the phone to me.
And you heard me cry and you heard me quietly say bye and shut off my phone.
I think you knew deep down, I could have given you everything.
Maybe you were too scared to give it a shot.
Maybe you werent strong enough to try.
