Screw you for getting scared off whenever I tried to get closer to you.
For making me feel like I did something wrong, just by loving you.
For convincing me that I was the problem, not you, never you.
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So you decided to push me away instead of pulling me closer.
Screw you for letting your past get in the way of our future.
For hating me for things thatyour exdid.
Even though Ive proven to you that Im someone different, someone worth your while.
Screw you for only admitting you cared about me when you were six beers deep.
Because you were worried about what would happen if you actually let me see the real, raw you.
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Screw you for hurting me before I could hurt you.
For thinking that our relationship was some sort of competition and refusing to be the loser.
For bracing yourself for destruction instead of realizing that we could have actually had something great.
Screw you for never giving us a chance.
Because Ive been hurt before, too.
I could have blamed you for things my ex did.
I could have let my fear chase me away from you.
Because I was willing to take a risk to be with you.
Because I genuinly cared about you.
Apparently more than you cared about me.
I hate you for what you put me through.
I hate you for making me fall and then leaving me to drop.
I didnt deserve all of the pain you put me through.
I didnt deserve to be strung along until you decided that you couldnt handle me anymore.
But for some reason, none of the horrible things youve done have changed my feelings for you.
I still like you.
I still want you.
So screw you for being so attractive, so intelligent, so much fun to flirt with.
Screw you for making me want you, even long after you left.
Screw you for being the one person I cant stop thinking about.
Screw you for getting over me.
Because Im still not over you.
