Youre a white girl with so many opportunities.
And I have to admit he had a point.
But that just makes me more sad.
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I wonder if its just me or if this is just a normal part of being a human being.
But the thing is, I never seem that way.
Sad, I mean.
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I seem moody, maybe.
Annoyed on a good day, but never sad.
Maybe thats who I want to be, so I pretend that I am her.
But some days Im so sad I bury myself in blankets and stare at my computer screen for hours.
Sometimes I put a movie on.
Sometimes the screen is blank.
If someone walks in I quickly check that it looks like Im doing something.
Go away, Ill say.
Youre young, youre healthy, and you have so many opportunities.
And I have to admit he had a point.
But that just makes me more sad.
Why cant I be happy when I have everything in the equation that should make me feel happy?
Then I just keep wondering what went wrong and I cant think about anything else.
Sometimes I wish I would.
Youre just going through a weird phase, my friend told me.
Youll get over it once youre in a more stable place in life.
But I dont know what that looks like.
I dont know what Im waiting for anymore.
I cancel all my plans because Im tired, Im sorry, I didnt get any sleep.
I cant make myself care about anything.
Everything works out eventually, my friend told me.
But I dont know what that means.
I dont know what there is to work out.
