Your behavior taught me to only trust actions… thank you for that.
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Updated 4 years ago,August 15, 2021
I finally see how indifferent you were.
How nothing ever seemed to matter to you, or how my words never really resonated.
Jakob Owens
When I was confessing my affections, worries and opinions, you werent actuallylisteningto me, you were justhearingme.
I finally see your selfishness and need for control.
You never made decisions looking at the bigger picture or the short and long term effects they may have.
You still werent done with me because I served some purpose, and you wanted to keep me close.
I finally see how you continuously hurt me.
Even though you said you didnt mean to, even though you said you were sorry.
But the choices you willingly make sometimes result in hurting others.
Or you may decide you simply dont care and continue on with what serves you best.
I finally understand that youre a man who simply does not know how to be on his own.
How your insecurity prevents you from carrying on without someone by your side.
How you never learned to love yourself and be comfortable walking through life alone.
I finally see how your words were bullshit.
Intentions and words dont make up for poor actions, even though we know better.
And your actions never matched your words.
You watched me cry, swore youd never hurt me again, and then continued to.
Your behavior taught me toonlytrust actions… thank you for that.
I finally see how you never loved me, contrary to all the times you said you did.
Maybe part of you wants it because youre so lonely, so you loved theideaof me, of us.
And really, how could I expect him to when he sadly doesnt even know how to love himself?
