I Get Tired Of Almosts

Updated 7 years ago,May 22, 2018

I get tired of relationships without the label.

I get tired of hookups that dont lead to something of a commitment.

I get tired of lies and being told just what I want to hear.

God & Man

I get tired of the one days and the promises that are never fulfilled.

I get tired of talking every day then being told were just friends.

I get tired of leaving late at night and knowing it will never turn to morning.

God & Man

I get tired of knowing Ill hear from you later but you never want me enough to stay.

I get tired of being jealous because we arent dating and I dont have a right to be.

I get tired of not knowing what to call you when I introduce you to someone.

Because friends dont look at each other the way we do.

Friends dont talk the way we do.

Friends dont kiss each other or hold each other as we do.

I get tired of questioning myself wondering why Im not enough to get you to commit.

I get tired of analyzing my flaws wondering if its me that needs to change.

I get tired of being so confused all the time.

Because one day its this and the other day its that.

But in my heart I know they probably dont know who I am.

I get tired of wondering what this is as I reread every text.

I get tired of every hope being met with disappointment.

I get tired of expecting the worst of someone.

I get tired of spelling out exactly how I feel only to be met with feeling empty.

I get tired of meeting up with you knowing with certainty youre going to leave.

I get tired of hearing the timing isnt right so I bank on waiting and hoping and wishing.

I get tired of wasting my time on someone I cant seem to walk away from.

Someone whose text I cant seem to ignore.

Someone who I meet all the way when they dont even bother to meet me half.

Someone who knows how to play me.

And Im like Im like some puppet in their strings.

Or some pawn in their game.

Im tired of holding on to something I should let go of.

But more than that, Im afraid.

Im afraid to discover it was only me holding on.