We will never know what we were.
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Updated 6 years ago,July 24, 2019
We will never know what we were.
You came into my life when I was learning to love myself again.
Wendy Wei
I thought I was ready for something new.
You had dark hair, dark brown eyes and a beautiful smile.
You came off not ordinary but extraordinary.
All I wanted was someone who would be there for me.
Who would listen to me talk about my day, support me and admire me.
I would do the same for them.
In the first couple of weeks you would text me every day.
Write me long paragraphs, reply within minutes or even seconds.
Message me on multiple apps at the same time.
I still remember the first time I was certain that this was going to be something real.
It was when you held me as we walked down a steep hill.
After that day something changed about you.
I was filled with hope and ideas that we were going to be spontaneous.
Meanwhile, you were becoming distant.
Every week you began to become more distant.
You began to text less, became more busy and couldnt spend time with me as much.
I took all the excuses and kept giving myself hope that you were just busy.
You were spending time at a beach and having dinner with your friends.
Yes, you were busy.
Why did you become distant?
Were you afraid that this was becoming real.
That I wanted you to be my knight in shining armor or that I wanted more.
Was I not good enough for you?
Did you ever for a second think I was not pretty enough?
Were you afraid of relationships?
Or Are you just afraid of a relationship with me?
Was I not good as the last girl?
For days, months and weeks I have questioned myself on this.
I will never know what it was that we had.
Did you for a second ever think of someone you would want to be with?
Did you ever think that we be extraordinary?
That the thing when people begin to change in a relationship of any sort it leaves us with questions.
It makes us question ourselves and the other person.
It affects us in ways and aspects that build delusions in our head.
You did not hurt me.
You left me confused.
If only I knew if it was my fault that you became distant.
Was it my personality or the way I looked that drove you away?
Or was it the wrong time and wrong place?
I guess I will never know.
