I Hate That I Still Think Of You

I hate that I do.

But Id be lying if I said I was completely over you.

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Updated 5 years ago,February 18, 2020

I hate that I still think of you.

Kinga Cichewicz

You treated me poorly time and time again.

Wasnt that reason enough for me to tell you off?

I told you to leave me alone.

I blocked your phone number.

I deleted your contact information.

And yet I still think of you every day.

Im still young, and I trust that I will find love again.

But for now, I still think of you more than Id like to admit.

I am often tempted to unblock your number.

You told me you were sorry, that you wouldnt do the same toxic shit.

But of course, you did.

And I let you in time and time again, only to be left feeling disappointed and hurt.

I feel stupid looking back, but I thought maybe you would finally change and appreciate me.

Perhaps in the future you will understand what you put me through.

Id like to think so, but Ill never know for sure.

I dont think this relationship was all that easy for you either.

We were definitely addicted to one another.

Just like any other relationship breakup, day by day, I know youll fade away from my memory.

But for now youre like a bad dream that haunts me.

I dont really know what it was like on your end and I never will.

But I dont really care anymore.

Im ready to move on.

But for now, you still pop into my brain everyday.

And I hate that I still think of you.