I Hate You For All The Right Reasons

And I wonder was there any truth to those promises I hung onto.

I hate you because you made me wait for something that I know now will never come true.

And it hurts believing in someone that much.

God & Man

I hate you because you taught me home wasnt the place I grew up but rather a person.

And now I drive down streets where you are everywhere.

At least your ghost is.

God & Man

Something about you I just cant seem to let go of.

And on every corner and every stop sign and every dead end I realize thats where we are now.

I realize the only reason you are alive within me is because Im keeping you there.

Holding memories like the are souvenirs that I cant seem to let go of.

I hate you because when you left you took so much of me.

I failed to realize it was my fault for giving away pieces of myself to keep someone else whole.

And in the end, it was me that got hurt.

I hate you because I dont trust people anymore.

I look at them and question their motives.

I hate you for the circles we ran in until both of us got tired.

I hate you for every moment you were horrible.

Taking out every difficult thing on me like I could handle it.

There was once a time I thought your complexity was alluring.

I hate you because I had to watch someone else get the love I deserved.

The love I pinned after.

The story I thought would be mine.

I hate you because you taught me how unfair life can be.

But for all the things I hate about you those are the same things I love.

I love you for teaching what love actually is through everything you didnt do.

Every word you didnt say.

Every excuse and explanation that were just a waste of words in ears that grew tired.

I love you for showing me it isnt about what people say its about what they do.

I love you for teaching me about home.

And maybe there are certain places I cant drive without thinking of you.

Maybe there are street corners where Ill always see you.

But on every road that now hurts, its made me who I am.

It was there I learned strength and independence.

I love you for teaching how to love someone unconditionally because I really did love every version of you.

Im starting to realize it was never going to be us.

The truth is I hate you for every right reason.

Ill look at you.

Youll look at me and well realize all we have in common is past we want to forget.