Maybe to you, I was just a phase.
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Updated 6 years ago,July 2, 2019
Some days, its like we never even met.
I can go on about my day without a single thought connecting back to you.
Evie Shaffer
But other days, I am consumed by thoughts of what could have been.
Why did you leave me this way?
And how could you not feel any remorse?
I cannot take this train without thinking of you.
I cannot help but hope each time my phone lights up, you might have changed your mind.
I want to be over this.
I want to drink my coffee and taste more than my loneliness.
I want to eat avocados without remembering who taught me how to pick the very best one.
I want to live my life the way I did before I met you.
Or maybe I dont.
Maybe there is some part of me deep down that actually enjoys feeling this way.
Maybe feeling heartbroken is better than not feeling at all.
Maybe learning how to love and let go is exactly what I needed to know.
Maybe everything does happen for a reason, and I just havent learned your reason yet.
kindly dont talk about a future you know we will never have.
hey dont pretend that you didnt sense my sadness.
And kindly dont write this off as something fun you did during your time here.
Maybe to you, I was just a phase.
I was a way to escape from your life and pass the time in the cold, Chicago winters.
I wish you still could.
