And I do remember what I saw in you.
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Updated 6 years ago,January 30, 2019
Im not really sure how it happened.
I must have seen something that reminded me of you, or maybe passed by someplace we went before.
God & Man
Regardless, I let myself think about you today.
Not in the way I typically do, which is full of anger and shame and blame.
No, today I thought about the things that I havent let myself think about in a long time.
The things I adored about you.
I let myself think about that first conversation when you fell so smoothly into step next to me.
I let myself think about how you would rest your forehead on mine before you kissed me.
And I do remember what I saw in you.
I remember how easily you could read people and how cool I thought that was.
I was always mildly afraid that you would reduce me to an insecurity.
And then I start to remember how you refused to kiss me if anyone else was around.
It turns out you had already read me and I didnt stand a chance.
How you took the kindness that you so often complimented and repainted it as naivety.
But as you said, I am a very warm person, and not even you could change that.
So I choose instead to let you go completely and gracefully.
You gave me so much that I couldnt have gotten from what I wanted.
You shone a light on all the parts of myself that I needed to heal.
kindly make no mistake, I am no longer bitter about having met you.
I am so incredibly grateful for the part you played in my life.
I feel free to find what has been waiting for me all along.
And youwereperfect for me, just not in the way that I expected.
I know better now and I am so thankful for that.
Ive done all the thinking and writing about you that I possibly could.
Thank you for being a part of my story.
The chapter is over, written and read.
And I have this feeling that the rest of the book is going to be amazing.
