These two parts of me tug at one another like children who cant get along.
Theyre amazing movements and I really care about stitching them into my life.
I daydream about losing weight and having certain parts of my body change.
God & Man
Its really embarrassing to admit, because I think of myself as someone who advocates body positivity.
Im not saying that everything always has to stay the same.
Of course, its okay to want to make changes to how Im taking care of myself.
Do I want to spend my life fighting or do I want to grow to accept it?
Weight loss is completely ineffective.Ive learned a ton from Linda Bacon in her bookHealth At Every Size.
She discusses how our bodies have a set point for weight and they hate to go below it.
This leaves weight loss as a really ineffective option.
This walloping leaves me wanting for the same change I just learned isnt possible.
Its exhausting to do this dance while often having the strings pulled by diet culture.
It really is a tiring game.
I say logical mind because sometimes my emotional mind hijacks everything and kicks any logic out.
Again, logically I know this is total bull, but tell that to my emotional mind.
I may always have a part of me that desires change.Ill never ever be a perfect body positive advocate.
And you know what?
I dont want to be.
I think these conflicting messages make me human and relatable.
Ill always have a part of me that thinks Im not good enough.
It just isnt going to happen and thats okay.
Im a human with feelings, thoughts, and desires that are all over the map.
Its completely normal that Im not just one way.
Im okay with this.
Im going to feed those thoughts of body celebration and feelings of being good enough.
