Im finally in a place where I know that missing you isnt a sign to give it another spin.
Its a sign that we had a great thing.
Thats it, thats all.
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Updated 4 years ago,August 9, 2021
I want things to be different.
Ive always held out hope that we would find a way if we just tried hard enough.
If we fought hard enough.
If we gave it everything we had.
Thats not the case, though.
Because some things dont work, even if you believe wholeheartedly that they should.
Everything in my bones screams at me that maybe there is another chance for us out there.
I would love to cling to that idea.
Yet the sadness and finality of everything sits on my chest like a weight.
We arent meant for each other.
If we were, then I wouldve sacrificed everything when I had the chance.
If we were, you wouldnt have looked to other people to fill the space I held.
If we were, you wouldve told me how you felt when it made sense to.
There are memories and moments where I understand why I felt so sure about us.
When I would reach out to you in a way that felt clingy and dependent.
I remember the endless circles we went around, how we called them learning experiences instead of bad habits.
But I cant spend the rest of my life being dizzy, even if its with you.
I miss you more than you could ever realize.
I still pick up the phone, ready to text you about something that happened.
I still ache when I see you post something on social media, and I want to reach out.
I think about you more often than I would care to admit- to myself or anyone else.
I know its okay to miss you because whatever we had was strong and beautiful.
To pretend like I dont miss you would be a disservice to everything we went through.
Yet Im finally in a place where I know that missing you isnt a sign to have another go.
Its a sign that we had a great thing.
Thats it, thats all.
So yo know I miss you, but I do understand we arent meant for each other.
