You said you never wanted to lose me, you never wanted it to end, but you left.
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Updated 8 years ago,May 12, 2017
Ill admit, I was sad.
For a second there it felt like my world had been ripped out from under me.
Chad Madden
You asked for time, so I gave it to you.
But what I didnt consider was that maybe I needed time as well.
See that was a problem.
Throughout the course of our relationship I gave my self very little consideration.
I was holding on to a possibility you didnt believe in.
I let you see me at my worst and most vulnerable and also at my best and most powerful.
Chad Madden
And because of that I wanted to continue to have the opportunity to see the same from you.
Because lets face it, youre a good guy.
Not perfect of course, but definitely worth the work.
But so was I.
I treated you so delicately.
Like someone I was afraid to lose.
And though you acknowledged my rarity, you knew my whole soul, it wasnt enough for you.
I think part of you wanted it to be, I saw the ways you tried.
But you were never able to fully commit.
I didnt have to check your phone or snoop through social media.
The signs were clear.
You werent willing to bet it all on me.
Just the smallest portions that could get you by for the time being.
You were waiting for a miracle, but I was the miracle.
I was sad for a few days.
I didnt lose, I learned.
A walking, talking, contradiction and that is why I was finally able to let you go.
I remember the day you threw me the line.
A step towards a deeper lover and communication, and then you pulled it back.
You decided it wasnt worth it.
But then I realized, where were you going to find someone like me?
IVE been looking for someone like me my whole life.
I was sent to make you better.
To make you want bigger things for yourself.
I can let you go knowing my love for you doesnt have to stop.
I will always love you and hope for you best.
I can let you go knowing well be okay.
Well grow from this and be better for having gone through it.
