You were everything I ever thought I needed, you just weren’t who I thought you were.
You were kind and sweet and soft, so unlike the other boys Id grown used to dating.
You would hold open doors and ask me about my past and visit my childhood home with me.
Joel Sossa
You and I were something different, something special.We could talk about almost anything.
You loved the things I cared about and hated the things I didnt.
Even when you didnt agree with me, youd at least admit I had a point.
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You grounded me when I started to float away and lifted me up when Id fall down.
You were everything I needed from the moment I met you.
But maybe that wasnt who you were.
Maybe thats just who I wanted you to be.
The truth is, I didnt know you as well as I thought I did.
Maybe you wanted to believe it, too.
The parts that didnt fit into my fairytale, that actively went against everything I wanted you to be.
I was in love, but it wasnt with you it was with the idea of you.
And thats how we fell apart tumultuously, tragically.
You couldnt hide your true self and I couldnt hide my disappointment.
Little by little, we became strangers, people who could no longer understand one another.
Little by little, we fell out of love with the people we pretended to be.
The hardest part wasnt the fighting or the screaming or the hurting.
It wasnt the nights when Id lie awake and tell myself over and over again not to text you.
It wasnt even losing you.
Thank you for wiping away my tears and singing me my favorite songs and treating my mother well.
And thank you, most of all, for loving me.
You were everything I ever thought I needed, you just werent who I thought you were.
