Waiting for you to invite me over.
Waiting for you to make a commitment.
Waiting for you to show you cared.
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When I told myself that you were a good guy, that there was no one better than you.
When I forced myself to believe your excuses, even though anyone could see that they were total bullshit.
When I convinced myself that you were in the right and I was wrong.
When I honestly believed that I was tooclingy, too needy, too dramatic.
That there was no reason for me to be upset in the first place.
When I lost my appetite from all the stress.
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When I wanted to stay asleep all day from becoming mentally exhausted.
I realized I needed to raise mystandardswhen I changed into someone I no longer recognized.
Someone who ditched friends and slacked on work.
Someone who stayed up until two in the morning screaming their lungs out and sobbing into pillowcases.
Someone who bent over backwards to yo a partner who never returned the favor.
Someone whose entire world revolved around a relationship that wasnt even healthy.
I realized I needed to raise my standards when I stopped trusting you.
When I started looking through your texts and scanning through your recent calls.
I realized I needed to raise my standards when everything about myself felt fake.
Waiting for you to invite me over.
Waiting for you to make a commitment.
Waiting for you to show you cared.
Waiting for you to give a damn.
