My father taught me one woman will never be enough for anyone.
My father taught me to become a paranoid mess.
No one is going to keep their promises if they have a chance to choose the selfish path.
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They are always going to do what is best for themselves.
They are always going to hurt you.
My father taught me to become a paranoid mess.
He taught me to be wary of every waitress and maid and nurse because theyre all potential one-night stands.
He taught me to look at other women as competition instead of friends.
My father taught me that its okay to use your fists when words arent enough.
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He taught me that its okay to callthe love of your lifea useless piece of shit.
He taught me thatalcoholis the answer to every problem.
My father taught me that love is violent.
That love is cruel.
That love is pointless.
That love is a waste of time because it will all unravel eventually.
Because of my father, I flinch at every loud noise I hear because I am expecting another fight.
Because of my father, all of my relationships suffer.
I have no idea what real love looks like because I grew up watching an imitation.
I grew up watching a horror show.
I know that I am an adult now.
I know that I am in control of my own life.
I am not going to assume every relationship will mimic his.
I am not going to let myself believe that monogamy is an impossibility, that love is a falsity.
I know the lessons myfathertaught me are bullshit.
I know he is an example of what not to do.
I know he is an example of what not to settle for.
I know that a real man would never put me through the bullshit I grew up watching.
