You deserved to know how I felt, how I still feel.
But I couldnt bear to open up like this, to make myself so vulnerable.
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Updated 4 years ago,April 13, 2021
I know what I said.
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I said that I dont know what I feel.
That its too much for me to handle.
And that I dont want you in my life.
Yet you didnt let me go.
You were there for me regardless of how hard I pushed you away.
Then, years later, I got scared.
I chose to disappear its one of my greatest tricks.
It never had anything to do with you it was me.
Thats my immediate response when things are getting serious and too intimate.
It was all out of fear.
Ive always claimed that I would never ghost it was my lifes motto.
However, I did that to you on more occasions than I can count.
And there arent enough apologies in the world to make up for it.
I should have told you how I felt.
You shouldve heard that I loved you.You deserved to know how I felt, how I still feel.
But I couldnt bear to open up like this, to make myself so vulnerable.
And now I have to live with the consequences.
I know I broke your heart.
And I know you cant trust me youve said so yourself.
Truth be told, I cant blame you.
In fact, that was the last thing I have ever intended to do.
And Im fairly certain that you will stay there forever.
Because the truth is that I have always loved you.
And no matter what happens, I think I always will.
