Even though I secretly have a soft heart, I can come across as coldhearted.
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Updated 7 years ago,September 3, 2018
I do not give enough compliments.
I do not give enough hugs.
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And I do not say those three little words nearly enough.
I am not open with my feelings.
I hide behind my sarcasm.
I dont want to get mushy.
I dont want to tell anyone how much they mean to me.
Instead of sayingI love youto family and friends and boyfriends, I will give them nicknames.
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I will annoy them.
I will banter back and forth with them.
I will use actions rather than words.
I will assume they already know how I feel, so theres no point in verbalizing it.
I suck at showing love.
I am uncomfortable with affection.
I feel weird looking someone in the eyes and telling them how much they mean to me.
But that doesnt mean I am unappreciative.
I think about how much my loved ones matter all the time.
I brag about them to others.
I put effort into our friendships.
I am thankful they are in my world.
I make them laugh.
I get them in a good mood.
That is my contribution to them.
I will tell jokes to lighten the mood.
I will have a go at get them on my good side again.
I express my emotions in a strange way.
Even though there are certain people I would doanythingfor, I suck at showing my love for them.
I suck at being vulnerable.
I suck at acting authentic.
Most of the time, people see my pure intentions.
They understand why there is a wall around my heart and accept the limitations it brings.
But other people do not realize my sarcastic remarks and inside jokes are symbols of affection.
They will take my insults the wrong way.
They will assume I could not care less about them.
They will see myI dont give a fuckattitude and assume its the truth.
They will get the wrong idea because I refuse to wear my heart on my sleeve.
I know I should work on my communication skills.
I know I should embrace my soft side.
I know I should spread more kindness.
