When my partner and I were intimate, things turned to slow motion and not the good kind.
I couldnt get into sex if my body wouldnt respond accordingly.
Before, it would barely take anything to make me aroused.
Jan Phoenix
I wanted it all the time.
For as long as I can remember, my pussy has been incredibly sensitive.
I was constantly horny and easily turned on and I didnt think that would ever change.
Jan Phoenix
Until, one day, it did.
It started with an itch.
Like, a really bad one.
I kept scratching it actually felt kind of good and chalked it up to a yeast infection.
This isnt the first time I had an issue down there.
I ended up stopping cold turkey and riding out the side effects.
I had no idea what was going on.
Did I pinch a nerve from scratching too much?
Was it all in my head?
I Googled extensively, hardly finding anything on the internet about numb clits.
I tried massaging it.
I tried exercising intensely.
I tried leaving it alone.
How could I stop worrying about something that was heavily weighing on me?
I identified closely as a sexual person.
Who was I without being able to enjoy an orgasm?
What if things never improved?
When my partner and I were intimate, things turned to slow motion and not the good kind.
I couldnt get into sex if my body wouldnt respond accordingly.
Before, it would barely take anything to make me aroused.
I wanted it all the time.
Even though that should go without saying, it was really nice to hear.
But it still didnt change the fact that I didnt feel like myself anymore.
I sank into a bad depression, unable to focus on anything else.
Depression led to eating my feelings which was a lot of gluten free doughnuts.
I started to develop a giant knot in my shoulder from being so stressed out.
Then the tingling started in my fingers and toes.
I ignored it and drank half a bottle of wine.
When I woke up the next morning, my whole body had pins and needles.
It was like when you fall asleep on your arm but it didnt go away when I got up.
I started crying hysterically and called my mom.
Did I pinch a nerve in my back?
Was that why my clit had lost feeling?
Or was it something else?
I remembered my mother talking about numbness in her limbs and struggling with sensation below because of diabetes.
I wanted to know if it was happening to me.
I wanted to know what I could do to stop it.
I havent always had the best connection with my mother.
But lately wed had a much more adult relationship without either of us having hormonal mood swings.
She said that doctors ran countless tests on her and she still didnt know exactly what was wrong.
She didnt think anyone wanted to hear her complain about it.
I took this as hope that I could reverse my symptoms.
How do I know it wasnt a coincidence?
This happened a number of times as I worked through trial and error.
I researched blood sugar and what foods were low on the glycemic index.
Months later and some dietary changes, the fire ants in my fingers and toes are gone.
The feeling in my clit has slowly re-appeared although its not completely back to normal.
The stress in my shoulders and depression has lifted.
