I want to text you, but I am going to have a go at hold myself back.
I am going to give a shot to keep my standards high.
I am going to make a run at keep you in my past.
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I know that there is too much sexual tension between us to last asjust friends.
I want to text you, but it would ruin all of the progress that Ive made.
And if you were suddenly back in my life, I would go right back to square one.
I would go right back to wanting you and only you.
I want to text you, but I am terrified that you wont be happy to hear from me.
That seeing my name across your screen will ruin your day instead of enhance it.
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I am scared that you wont answer me.
That you will leave my texts unanswered, proving that you dont care about me anymore.
That you are happier without me in your life.
I want to text you, but I know you wont tell me what I want to hear.
I know that the fairy tale version of our conversation that I keep imagining in my mind isnt realistic.
You arent going to saysorryand ask if we can loop back and try.
I want to text you, but I dont even know what I would say to you.
They might not bring me any closure.
They might only make things worse.
They might only open up old wounds that should be healed by now.
I dont want you to know that it has been killing me to stay so far away from you.
I want totext you, but I know that it would be a bad idea.
I know that it would only make things worse.
I want to text you, but honestly, I am happy without you.
I am surviving without you.
I am thriving without you.
I am living my best life now that you are gone.
