I Was Just A Body To You

And for that I thank you.

I ran a marathon with it.

Through hills and valleys, I carried your love.

Nishe

Your love was heavy.

It wasnt light, and it wasnt easy to hold.

See the thing is that you never loved me, for me.You loved me, for you.

You loved me because it was what you needed.

It wasnt because I was what you needed.

You never kissed me because you loved me.

You didnt want anyone to see that deep down you were burying yourself.

See the thing is, you always knew that it wasnt me.

You always knew that deep down you wanted someone else, something else.

Yet, you were so desperate for a covering, and I was your covering.

I was your escape route.I was just a body to you.

You were so deceiving.

You were so good at fooling me.

See the thing is, all of these things collapsed, as they naturally would.

Eventually, it got to a point where you couldnt hide anymore.

You had to look me right in the eyes, and tell me why you loved me.

You had to tell me that it wasnt for love, it was for the lust.

I was nothing more than just a body for you.

A body that was ready, and available for your unrealistic urges.

I was just a body to you.

You had finished me, and you were ready to go.

Simply because I was just a body to you.

Although this realization is painful and disgusting, for all of these things I thank you.

I thank you for using me.

I thank you for giving up on me.

I thank you for not fighting for me.

Thank you for showing me that true love is a commitment.

True love is someone who sits with you, and listens to all of your demons.

True love is someone who chooses you.

And for that I thank you.

And my God, I cant wait to find the person who stays.

I am so much more than just a body.