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Updated 6 years ago,December 3, 2018
Our almost relationship blurred boundaries for me.
You spent in-person time with me.
You went out of your way to do cute things for me and you complimented me all the time.
God & Man
The chemistry was there.
All of the stepping stones toward a relationship were set in place.
But we never ended up together.
We split ways before we had the chance to turn our feelings official.
Did I only imagine those sugar-sweet moments between us?
Was I reading something in between the lines of your texts that never existed in the first place?
Was I completely fooling myself?
Was I only seeing what I wanted to see?
I am never going to get any closure because there are too many questions swarming me.
Did you realize you were leading me on?
Its strange to mourn a relationship that never existed.
Its even stranger having no idea whether the person you cannot stop thinking about ever thinks aboutyou.
I wonder what you tell people about me.
When someone else mentions my name, do you tell them about us?
Do you like talking about me?
Or are you embarrassed about how close you came to me?
Do you only consider me a friend or maybe even less than that?
I will never be the same after our almost relationship.
I will never again assume someone wants to date me.
If anything, I will assume the opposite.
I will assume they are only a temporary part of my world.
I will assume they will leave me behind as soon as they grow bored.
I will assume I am the one who cares more.
Im not exactly sure what happened between us, but I know how much it hurts.
I know how insecure it has left me.
I know how much baggage you have unintentionally brought.
I will never be the same after our almost relationship.
I will never make the same mistakes that I made with you.
