I never thought Id thank you for breaking my heart, for destroying my soul.
Id never felt it, but Ive seen movies.
Ive read books, I had an idea.
Danielle Drislane
Id always classified myself as a hopeless romantic whos never been in love.
Getting older, I watched everyone around me settle down and fall in love.
No point in wasting anyones time.
I got used to being alone.
So used to it, I decided I liked it better this way.
I focused on myself.
When they said youll find love when you stop looking for it, they werent kidding.
You came completely out of the blue.
You were suddenly my best friend.
Everything I did had you in it.
Sleeping was so much easier now that I had you to fall asleep with.
Its like I got everything I ever wanted in you.
I felt like I was in a cheesy romance movie, and I never wanted it to end.
But it was too good to be true.
You were too good to be true.
Ignoring my gut instinct will forever be my biggest regret.
Im confused, how I could be so naive to believe my first love would be my forever love.
Dont ever doubt how much I loved you, though.
Thats what happened when I lost you.
It didnt make sense.
The world is cruel in that way.
They watched me find my greatest joy, waiting for me to finally feel my greatest loss.
The greatest heartbreak is the one you desperately tried to prevent.
Maybe its better we dont talk, even when it feels like theres so much left to be said.
Maybe you were simply a lesson in my life.
A brutal, sadistic, harsh lesson, to never put too much trust in a single person again.
You taught me to depend on myself, in the most heartless way possible.
You took all that you could, and left me broken, the bitter taste of heartbreak flooding in.
You gave me no choice to rebuild.
Rome wasnt built in a day, and neither was I. I had to wipe every trace left of you, and start new.
I was built on a new foundation this time.
I was built on the ruins you left, I was stronger, more protected, this time.
My self peace is now my only priority.
You cannot take that from me again.
Thats what I had to do.
A fresh start, a fresh heart, one that couldnt be tainted with your dirty hands.
The most beautiful thing Ive experienced was my becoming.
At the end of the day, I have nobody but myself to get me up the next day.
I found something worth living for in myself, my dreams, and my successes.
You gave that to me.
I never thought Id thank you for breaking my heart, for destroying my soul.
But I am thankful.
Thank you for teaching me how to tell when Im being lied to.
Thank you for teaching me not everyones intentions are as pure as mine.
