I hate how socially awkward I am.
I hate how difficult it is for me to continue a conversation.
I know I could technically do all of those things on my own.
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Even though I consider myselfindependent, there are certain things I dont want to do alone.
I want a friend there to share the experience.
I want a friend who will walk through my door without knocking because they feelthatcomfortable around me.
I want a friend.
Right now, I feel completelyalone.
I feel like there isnt anyone around who understands me.
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I feel like there isnt anyone who cares about me.
My phone rarely lights up with texts across the screen.
My weekends are rarely filled with plans.
I spend most of my free time by myself, watching television or scrolling through social media.
I never have any exciting stories to tell because I never leave my house.
I cant remember the last time I smiled an authentic smile.
I am probably being too hard on myself.
Maybe its my fault that I have been feeling so lonely lately.
Maybe I am actively choosing to isolate myself.
After all, there have been times when people have invited me places and I turned them down.
There have been moments where I could have involved myself in conversations but sat back and listened instead.
Maybe I feel like I dont have any friends because Im afraid to put myself out there.
I hate how socially awkward I am.
I hate how difficult it is for me to continue a conversation.
I just want to find people who make me feel comfortable.
People who make me feel like Im not alone after all.
