I see your smile and all my strength leaves my body.
I wish I knew how to quit you.
If I could, I would.
God & Man
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Updated 8 years ago,July 28, 2017
I dont know how to stop.
Its like you have this power over me, that I honestly have never felt before.
And I dont know why or how.
But its just there.
And I know its fucked up.
But I dont know how to quit you.
God & Man
I didnt want this to happen.
I didnt want to like you, to want you.
I didnt want you to be so charming on our date.
I didnt want you to get inside my head.
But you knew you would.
I didnt want to want you to like me.
But thats the problem isnt it?
Youwantme and then you dont.
And then you like me, and then you ignore me.
And youd think Id be smart enough to not fall into this rabbit hole.
You think Id be smart enough to realize the warning signs.
To be able to be strong.
But with you, Im not strong.
Because you smile and my heart pulses in double time.
You pour me a drink and look me in the eyes, and my whole body is on fire.
You see me dancing, dancing on the bar counter and you cant keep your eyes off of me.
And I know it.
But I dont go home to you at the end of the night.
I dont receive a text.
I dont get anything from you.
I just go home alone, alone inside my head, knowing that this cycle needs to stop.
But not knowing how to stop it.
I dont know what this is.Lust?An obsession?
I cant shake it.
I cant shake you off of me.
No matter if I take a stab at ignore you or if I just stop seeing you completely.
I know youre bad for me.
But Ive never had that before.
Ive never had a bad boy.
The kind of boy who takes your fucking breath away.
Ive never known this kind ofwanting.
Ive never known this kind of breathless suffocating of needing to see your face and to see your smile.
I dont know what you want or need.
But I know you eye me when Im laughing with my friends.
I feel your eyes on me, burning a hole right through me.
But thats the thing about you and I.
We arent even anything at all.
Theres nothing to start.
And theres nothing to end.
I see your smile and all my strength leaves my body.
I wish I knew how to quit you.
If I could, I would.
