If you were still alive, would I take more risks?
Would I love without restriction, because I didn’t know the pain of being abandoned?
When you were still alive and after you were gone.
Twenty20 / NickBulanovv
Things seem so different now than they were back then.
If it haseverythingto do with it.
I wonder if your death caused a chain reaction.
If its the reason why Im scared of getting close to anyone.
If its the reason why I push people away.
If you were still alive, would my life have went in a different direction?
Twenty20 / NickBulanovv
Would I have chosen a different major, a different career path?
If you were still alive, would I be closer with certain friends and family?
Would they have stayed around instead of slowly drifting away?
Would you have been the glue keeping us all together?
If you were still alive, would I take more risks?
Would I love without restriction, because I didnt know the pain of being abandoned?
Or would I take you for granted?
If you were still alive, would we eventually have fights where I screamed at you?
Would we have drifted apart, too?
Would I have done something to chase you out of my life?
Sometimes, it still doesnt feel real.
I cant believe you arent going to be there the day of my graduation.
The day of my milestone birthdays.
The day of my wedding.
I wonder if I would be more excited about those things if you were still alive.
If I would be more optimistic about the future.
If I would truly believe that great things were in store for me.
I wonder how different I would be if you were still alive.
I wonder how much your death changed me.
Someone that still holds you in their heart, even after all this time.
