It makes you angry that you still care.
You hate that you still wonder if he misses you at all.
If he regrets anything at all.
God & Man
But you are human.
It makes you angry that you still care.
You hate that you still wonder if he misses you at all.
If he regrets anything at all.
You are human, so your healing takes time.Maybe more time than you want to allow.
Not that you really have much of a choice as you have probably come to realize.
God & Man
You cant rush your process, but you’re free to get yourself to face the facts slowly.
Starting with, it is actually over.
I dont know all the details, but I know this… it is not the end for you.
It can feel that way sometimes, being single again, but it isnt.
You are so much further along because you know more now what you cant and wont tolerate again.
You are stronger now.
Let wisdom sit beside you as you remember the things about him that made you smile so sweetly.
Let bravery be your companion as you recall why that smile could not last.
Be brave when you remember the hurtful things he said and did.Dont forget or brush past these scenes.
Do not make it smaller than it was.
Let it be what it is.you could miss the good times you shared, and how you felt together.
Remember more than just how good it felt to be intimate, to be close, to feel wanted.
Push past the discomfort of remembering.
Be gracious to yourself as you remember the things that hurt and the things you shared.
Be gentle with yourself in the way you grieve.
Do not rush to extremes.
He was the best thing that could have ever happened to you, but he did happen to you.
You are in process of healing.
That does take time.
c’mon do notice though, that you are standing still.
That you are reading this, right here, breathing.
Do take the time to acknowledge how strong you have been.
How much shit you put up with that you no longer have to.
like notice, your own beauty.
Instead, remember that you are a force.
You like the universe are large and ever expanding.
You are stronger than any and everything you have ever walked through.
You are not in a rush.
Do not minimize the fact that he lost you.
You are not at a loss.
You will heal in time.
Instead, dive into you.
Jump off the high dive and let yourself be immersed in your strength.
Do not forget you while you grieve the loss of some moments.
Your complexity and beauty are far more involved than the compliments he was capable of giving you.
You dont need him to be your center.
You dont need him to text you back.
You dont need him to apologize, and you dont need to cry anymore.
Remember the things, embrace what you are feeling, dont forget what you have learned.
Take your time with your healing.
Sometimes your heart takes a while to catch up with your mind.
Good things take time.
Sometimes, the good thing is letting go.
Whatever you do, do not rush your release.
Do not beat yourself up about taking your time with it.
Chase slow and steady, one day you will wake up and your vision will be clear.
You would have cried your last over a boy whose memory no longer stings.
