If I were drunk in a room with everyone Ive ever loved, whose arms would I run into?
It still haunts me.
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Updated 6 years ago,June 13, 2019
I was playing a drinking game the other night.
Kelsea Kosko
It wasnt the kind of drinking game where everyone ends up in fits of laughter.
It was my turn to answer.
A guy whose name I cant remember asked me the question.
If you were drunk in a room with everyone youve ever loved, whose arms would you run into?
My first thought was the guy who broke my heart just last year.
His cheeky smile still haunts my thoughts sometimes.
But it was just someone in a similar shirt; those damn checkered button-ups are everywhere.
My second thought was the one with whom the timing was never quite right.
We would have been great together, but we never got the chance to see just how great.
Then I thought about the girl I used to call my best friend.
Though I must admit, I really thought we were.
It wasnt a romantic love, but when our friendship crumbled, so did a piece of me.
My mind sifted through everyone I know and love and the ones I knew and loved.
Some faces were easy to picture, others not so much.
I wasnt sure which ones hurt more: the ones I couldnt remember or the ones I couldnt forget.
People who I still think about and wonder if I cross their minds too.
A heart can break in so many ways.
If I were drunk in a room with everyone Ive ever loved, whose arms would I run into?
It still haunts me.
Out loud, I went with option one, the guy from last year.
It was easy, a simple explanation, an obvious one, even.
But on the inside?
Does it come down to which person I still love?
Or whom I loved the most?
Who I havent seen in the longest?
Its a question Im going to be thinking about for a while.
