If I’m Being Honest I Was The One Who Wasn’t Ready

Im proud to admit I wasnt ready for another flakey person or another half-hearted relationship.

I wasnt ready for another uncertain outcome.

I wasnt ready for low investment or low vibration or unmatched effort and excitement.

Sinitta Leunen

I wasnt ready for lame excuses and mixed signals.

I wasnt ready for another person to waste my time.

Unavailable because Ive been available to these patterns before and all I got was more of them.

If Im being honest I was the one who stopped investing.

I stopped trying for people who do so little.

I stopped showing my best to people who show me their worst.

I now match peoples energy.

I now treat them the way they treat me.

I now withdraw my share when the stakes are low.

I now cut things off when people hand me the scissors.

I now drop people off because Im not afraid to drive alone.

I dont give a shot to compete with anyone anymore because I am no longer interested in the game.

Im no longer interested in winning or losing.

I wasnt ready to hurt myself again.

I wasnt ready to diminish my self-worth for someone who doesnt deserve it.

I wasnt ready to love again and get heartbroken.

I wasnt ready to go through the same old cycle that I know too well.

So much more than bits and pieces.

So much more than what I got used to.

So much more than mediocrity and indifference.

So much more than someone who is not all in.