Now, you know that that was bullshit too.
You were angry, absolutely.
He was wrong for you, yes.
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You knew that you deserve better, no doubt about it.
You never thought you would fall this hard for the wrong person.
The flags were there, but every time you made a move to leave…he would apologize.
He would get softer when you pulled away.
Then you would justify it when he pulled away suddenly.
Remembering after all, that you were just friends.
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After you became friends, you started to feel severely less single than before you knew him.
You were angry,absolutely.
He was wrong for you,yes.
You knew that you deserve better,no doubt about it.
It has been time to move on,of course.
But your feet werent moving.You havent left.
When you think about the bad times, you grow really mad.
For better or worse,he was a friend and a romantic interest at once point.
For better or worse,he led you on and you believe him.
You believed himin the way you kissed back.
You believed himin the way you stayed awake when he asked.
You believed himin the way you cheered him on, despite him never being there for you.
The man that would choose you.
You laughed together, shared life together, and for just some moments…there was potential.
You almost made sense together.
In moments like that, you dont feel that you will get over him and that hurts you too.
Might I suggest, that you dont have to feel strong to be strong?
you could decide to let go emotionally.
You do not have to keep losing yourself to a senseless hope for a weak boy becoming your man.
Embrace the sting of the initial release.
Let him go, no matter how weak you feel.
Dont wait to feel strong enough to walk away.
Walk away now,even if you tremble.
Walk away now,even if you doubt.
You are worth more than he could have ever given you.
He would have only stolen the gleam in your eyes and the shine in your smile.
Keep walking.
You will believe itin your being.
You will believe itwith your new favorite songs.
You will believe itwith your new favorite things to do.
You will believe itwith your better friendships.
One day, you wont care.
You will have moved on in every sense of the word.
You will be better off.You wont feel the sting of release any longer.
You will catch a glimpse of yourself somewhere and smile.
You will help encourage the next girl who struggles to believe that she can leave her toxic almost too.
You will talk about your freedom with conviction from your experience because you overcame.
You will know she can leave even if she doesnt feel like she can.
You will know because you did.
Even when you didnt think you could.
You will become a lighthouse to her.
A beacon of hope, inspiring her to pick herself up and to believe that she is worth more.
