I want to change, and I want to grow.
I planned for this love in my life, even though I had mostly seen failures.
Call me delusional, but I never cared to be rich or famous.
Jamie Street
I wanted this one true love that would make me have faith in the world.
All I ever wanted was to feel love.
Everyone says you have to love yourself before someone else can love you.
Would you call me weak for looking for love because I had never felt it from anyone else?
I never learned to love myself, so I tried to look for love from you.
I always knew the right words to say, but as they say, talk is cheap.
Could you only feel sorry for me because I always tried so hard?
Would you consider me clingy because everyone I ever tried to love left me?
Despite all the disappointments, I was always strangely hopeful that true love existed.
I shouldnt have punished you for other peoples mistakes.
I shouldnt have made you suffer for the wounds I got from others.
And I am so sorry for that.
Three years ago, I was talking to a friend, who told me, Relationships arent easy.
You have to change with them.
I did this because when most of the world gave up on me, you didnt.
When I met you, you never made me question my feelings for you.
You always made me feel safe.
Another friend of mine recently told me that everyone deserves to be somebodys first choice.
You are my one and only choice.
I am truly sorry.
I chose you because I felt you would do whatever it takes, and sometimes it takes a lot.
I chose you because I am willing to risk everything in the process hoping you would do the same.
I cannot promise you eternity, but I will always hope for the best.
I chose you to be my life; I chose you to be my world.
So, if you are reading this, I love you.
