Even the shortest text to you would be like opening a door and letting you back into my life.
It would be like admitting that I missed you more than you missed me.
It would be like handing you my heart and giving you the chance to hurt me all over again.
God & Man
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Updated 8 years ago,August 18, 2017
I shouldnt be curious about your love life.
I shouldnt still bethinking about you.
Theres no reason for me to care about how your life has been going.
To check up on you.
And then I think of all of the reasons why reaching out to you wouldnt bethatbig of a deal.
I tell myself that saying hello wouldnt mean a thing.
God & Man
That its completely harmless.
That it wont lead to anything.
After all, its just a text message.
Its just a few words.
Its just a harmless conversation with someone I used to know.
But then I have to remind myself that ahelloisnt just ahello.
Even the shortest text to you would be like opening a door and letting you back into my life.
It would be like admitting that I missed you more than you missed me.
It would be like handing you my heart and giving you the chance to hurt me all over again.
When it comes to anyone else, a text is innocent.
It doesnt mean a thing.
Theres no reason to analyze it.
Out of the blue.
That I must be hung up on you after all this time.
I was already hurt by you once before.
I cant go through that again.
I dontdeserveto go through that again.
Thats why you havent heard from me, even though youre still on my mind.
Even though Imiss youmore than I can stand.
Even though I wonder if theres any possible way that we could ever make things work.
In the past, I have forced myself to erase the message I was planning on sending you.
To throw my phone across the room instead of making a call.
To delete your name from my contact list.
Because you belong there.
