I’m done feeling insignificant in the eyes of the ones I love.
Someone who would find me beautiful and mesmerizing no matter what I do.
I hoped theyd never take their eyes off me the same way I couldnt peel my eyes from them.
Ivandrei Pretorius
Yet here I am, fighting for attention thats already spread between Reddit threads and pornographic videos.
It doesnt matter if Im sporting a sexy cocktail dress or my birthday suit.
Somehow Im simply insignificant.
Dont I deserve someone who finds me worthy of their time?
I hoped Id find someone who appreciates my constant curiosity as much as my wit and wanderlust.
A friend who joins me in the good times but still loves me when things flip upside down.
My heart simply longs for a permanent companion who tackles life with me hand-in-hand.
It doesnt matter if I helped them through their darkest moments or grad school days.
Someone else is more important and Im dismissed as obnoxious.
Dont I deserve someone whose dedication matches my own?
Am I not worthy of companionship and unconditional love?Im done falling insignificant to those whom I adore.
I always longed for recognition for my dedication and work ethic on any project I take on.
Appreciation for my valiant efforts and ingenuity.
I hoped the stress and strain would eventually be rewarded, making the pain all worthwhile in the end.
Yet here I am, barely getting by while others slide on procrastination and a sprinkling of talent.
It never matters that I slaved through the night or carried the weight of three.
Someone else will reap what I sew time and time again.
Dont I deserve my fifty seconds of fame or at least a job well done?
I hold little value in my appearance and even less in my brains and brawn.
I constantly belittle my accomplishments and tell people who compliment me that theyre wrong.
Isnt there something wrong with that, though?
Is there a flaw within the story inside my head?
Maybe the one who sees me as most insignificant has actually been me all along.
Well, Im done feeling insignificant in the eyes of everyone.
Im done accepting the internal monologue of insults just as much as from anyone.
I refuse to continue this vicious cycle of self-loathing and dismissal from everyone.
