I like that Im not a simple girl.
Im messy and chaotic.
Im complicated and spontaneous.
Ilya Yakover
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Updated 8 years ago,May 25, 2017
Im not an easy girl.Im not simple or precise.
My colors blend all over the page.
Im not simple; Im messy.
Ilya Yakover
I turn the simplest things into multifaceted crystals.Im not easy going or relaxed.Im overflowing.
Im overflowing with thoughts and ideas that lead me all over the map.
I dont move smoothly from Point A to Point B. I jump.
And sometimes, I have to go backwards.
Im complicated.I easily turn molehills into mountains in my head.
I jump onto new thoughts like a train, moving full steam ahead.Im sensitive.I live in the extremes.
I live in the highs and the lows, the blues and the golds.
I live in the warm hues of fire embers and the cool shades of snow.
My heart is spontaneous, my mind is elaborate.
I am often uncertain.I rarely know exactly what I want.
And what I want rarely knows where to meet me.Im not casual.I like to know things.
I want to know things.
I want to know specifics.
I want to know times and dates and hours and minutes.
I want to know what to expect.Im free spirited.I want room to wander and to be free.
I want room to find joys in the smallest places and the tiniest moments.
I dont want to be restrained by time or by expectations.
And when I break, I reform.
I know that I am messy.
I know that I am complicated.
Im not simple.
Im not easy going.
I know that my messiness makes life harder than it needs to be.
I know that I have a tendency to force my mind to work when it really needs to rest.
I know that I never give my heart a break.
I know that all of my thoughts and emotions end up exhausting my soul.
And sometimes Ive considered that life would be easier if I were simple.
But Ive learned a secret: I like being messy.
I dont judge other people based on whether they fit in a perfect frame.
And you know what?
