Im afraid to be a girlfriend because I know Ill love every minute of it.
You dont fear going to events stag because you know what that feeling like.
Sometimes you almost even like it.
God & Man
You like not having anyone to answer to.
You like not having someone follow you around the room.
Youve built a confidence behind this title you proudly wear.
God & Man
You take pride in your independence.
In doing what you want when you want it.
You go out at night and you never know how it will end.
Things like that are okay and acceptable when you are single.
The rules of being single are there are no rules.
You live according to however you want and youve grown used to it.
You dont fear it as much as you embrace it.
When youre single every decision benefits you.
you’re free to be as selfish as you want and its okay.
But then there are nights you feel very lonely in a crowded room.
Nights where you wish you had someones hand to hold.
Nights where you wish you didnt have to be the strong one.
But youre alone and have no other choice.
Holidays where you wish you could tell your mom to add another place setting to the table.
Christmass you wish you had someone to buy something for.
Dates you wish you could celebrate.
Nights where you come home and you wish someone was waiting for you.
There are nights where you toss and turn and you remember when someone used to lay next to you.
But theres company in loneliness.
There are nights where you wish it were more.
But you also fear commitment.
Knowing how it will end.The chase of it all.
Knowing at the end of it, you have yourself which is what youre used to.
Then you meet a decent person and you execute the other way.
You meet someone who likes you and wants to be with you and you find flaws you cant tolerate.
You find someone who would be good for you and you talk yourself out of it.
When youre single it isnt just a relationship status, its lifestyle youre choosing.
And when youre single long enough, its a lifestyle you grow accustomed to.
The truth is Im afraid to be someones girlfriend.
Im afraid to let someone that close to me.
I fear meeting someone and falling in love.
I fear being a girlfriend because of all the things that come with it.
Suddenly Ill have family obligations that arent my own.
Suddenly Ill have to include someone else in decisions Ive made for most my life alone.
Im afraid of getting used to someone.
Im afraid of someone becoming a part of my routine.
Im afraid to fall out of fear the person wont catch me.
But most of all Im afraid to be someones girlfriend because Im afraid to be that happy.
Im afraid of suddenly having this life I truly love because of another person.
A lack of control in your life because one person came and shook everything up about it.
Im afraid to be someones girlfriend because I know Ill love every minute of it.
