I love my job.
I love my friends.
I love my life.
God & Man
For the most part.
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Updated 12 months ago,May 17, 2024
I love my job.
I love my friends.
I love my life.
For the most part.
I feel like I should be thankful for everything that I have accomplished lately.
God & Man
I feel like whining about where I am now would be ungracious.
I am more mature.
I have grown into a much better person.
Of course, there are still days when I struggle to climb out of bed.
Days when I cancel plans because I cant stomach the thought of leaving the house.
Despite all of that, I definitely dont think Im depressed.
Of course, Im not happy either.
Whenever I laugh, its only for a second before the sadness sets in again.
It doesnt matter if I meet up with my friends and have the time of my life.
In the moment, Im loving it.
But as soon as it ends, Im back at square one.
Im back feeling bleh.
However, fine isnt good enough for me.
I dont want to live a life that is only average, ordinary, mediocre.
I want to live that excites me.
A life I can say makes me proud.
I dont want to settle, just because I have finally reached a place where I feel comfortable.
I dont want to letfinebecome my everyday mood.
I dont want to keep feeling like this balancing between happy and sad.
This is a huge step up.
But that doesnt mean its enough.
That doesnt mean I should accept it.
That doesnt mean I only deserve this and nothing more.
I want to experience authentic happiness.
I want to be excited about waking up every morning and getting to work.
I want to make plans with friends that Ill count down the days until.
I want to search for meaning.
I want to feel like I have a purpose.
I want to live instead of just existing.
I am no longer going to letfinebe a part of my vocabulary.
I am no longer going to settle for an average life, because I can do better than that.
I deserve more than that.
I deserve to be happy.Truly happy.And I am going to find a way to make that happen.
