I suck at saying goodbyes.
I would marvel over how I couldnt find a single trace of you as though you never exist.
I would have a hole in my memory where all my happiest times with you used to be.
Lisa Fotios
I would hold none of the bitterness and resentment inside me and truly let you go.
That would ensure that I wouldnt have to grieve for all the times lost.
I wouldnt have to be a shadow of my previous self and feeling the heavy burden on my shoulder.
I gave you so many chances hoping to make it work and you took me for granted.
But I know that I will be okay.
Looking back, I have come from a long way.
I accepted less than what I deserved because I believed that I was unlovable.
Im so glad that I parted from you.
Im so relieved I managed to walk out that dark part of my life.
In fact, this experience only makes me grow as an individual.
I learn how to be truly alone and I enjoy it more than I thought I would.
You didnt ruin love for me.
My capacity to love only grows deeper and Im filled with such fierce love for myself now.
I am encouraged to chase after the forgotten dreams that I never dared when I was with you.
I learn to build myself up from the rock bottom realizing how I do not need you.
I now know how toxic our relationship was and I would never compromise my standard for my next one.
Im not sorry for leaving you.
I only wished that I had done it sooner.
