As far as realizations go, this is both liberating and terrifying.
As far as realizations go, this is both liberating andterrifying.
Liberating in that living with unconditional love in your heart frees you from seeking love out.
Terrifying in that loving someone so hard makes you vulnerable to hurt and pain.
Along with every memorable moment, theres the possibility that something might go horribly wrong at any time.
Im slowly learning that my life has changed.
Im no longer able to do the things that were once easy, mostly for logistical reasons.
My day-to-day existence has shifted permanently to accommodate my little one.
But Im not at all resentful.
I want to be with my baby pretty much always anyway.
Im slowly learning that my own needs are secondary to those of the tiny creature Ive created.
Not because Im an especially generous or kind individual, but because thats what being a mom entails.
Theres no avoiding it, really.
When your baby needs to eat, you instinctively feed them.
When they cry, you work to soothe them.
You eat what it’s possible for you to, when it’s possible for you to.
You exercise if and when you get the chance, if and when you have the energy.
Im slowly learning that being a mom is all-consuming.
You never get to stop being a mom.
Im slowly learning that Im a different person now.
And that thats okay.
It would be impossible to remain the same.
I am my former self, plus motherhood.
But itdoesrequire making tough choices, and learning.
It requires softening your heart, and toughening your soul.
