You deserve someone that stands by the good, the bad, and the ugly sides of you.
I didnt look too far past that and I was too busy riding the high I was on.
I wasnt nearly as experienced as I am now.
God & Man
I wasnt nearly invested in my own growth as I am now.
My mind isnt clouded in doubt anymore.
Im not as insecure as I used to be.
I dont need your approval on my own personal decisions like I used to.
I feel like I put too much of my life into your hands.
I didnt think about everything that you had going on in your life.
When I thought of us, there were a lot of days where I just saw me.
Im sorry that it came at your expense.
If I could go back and change everything, would I?
I would behave better and treat you better, but I think this was something we both needed.
I think you needed to see that you deserve someone who doesnt make things about themselves.
You also needed to know that you deserve the commitment that I was unable to give you.
I didnt know your worth until after we were done being together.
You deserve someone who sees your value while youre with them.
That was something I only partially saw.
I saw the good and thought I was with the right person.
When I saw the bad I got hesitant and a little hostile.
You deserve someone to love all of you.
You deserve someone that stands by the good, the bad, and the ugly sides of you.
I know youre strong enough to overcome all the shit that everyone piles on you.
I hope you find someone that helps remove that pile.
I hope you find someone who has the temperament to deal with anything you hurl his or her way.
I know thats not something you always saw.
Youre gentle heart never thawed even though people would touch it with their cold hands.
You deserve endless joy, and thats not something youve always gotten.
That was something I couldnt provide, but Im glad you saw that.
I hope you find someone who unselfishly gives you the best version of themselves.
There are already enough ordinary and selfish people in this world.
You specifically deserve someone who is extraordinary and willing to sacrifice pieces of themselves for you.
