I’m not trying to cause drama where none exists.
I’m only trying to protect my heart.
You could smile at me from across a crowded room and I will overthink what the look meant.
Im sorry if my overthinking makes me difficult to love.
Im not trying to cause drama where none exists.
Im only trying to protect my heart.
I dont want to be the person who gets blindsided when their partner cheats.
I dont want to overlook the red flags.
I dont want to be caught off guard.
I would rather see the betrayal coming.
I would rather know what is waiting for me down the road.
Since Im so worried about thewhat ifs,I pay too much attention to detail.
That you are hiding something from me.
That you want nothing to do with me.
The tiniest problem will snowball into me wondering whether you secretly cant stand me.
Im always ready for things to go wrong.
Im always on edge, observing the people around me to prepare for what happens next.
I could get cheated on.
I could get dumped.
I could have my heart shattered and spend years trying to jam the broken pieces back into place.
When the world brings me too much happiness at once, I get suspicious.
I assume something horrible is about to happen to balance out my emotions.
I will imagine all of the things you might say to me when we talk for real.
I might accidentally get mad at you, even though you havent done anything wrong yet.
I might make myself more paranoid than I have any right to be.
Im sorry if I becomequietafter the smallest thing goes wrong.
Im sorry if it seems like Im always overreacting.
Im sorry if my overthinking makes me difficult to love.
Im scared you are going to leave.
Im scared you are going to break me apart like all the others who came before you.
