I never want you to feel like Ive forgotten about you.
I never want you to feel like I dont care.
Im sorry about how early I leave parties.
Adrianna Van Groningen
Im sorry about how quiet I am in conversations.
Im sorry about how long it can take me to answer texts.
Im sorry for all the times I disappointed you when you were expecting to see me.
Im sorry for all of the little white lies Ive told to make it get out of social situations.
I hope you realize my anxiety is the reason why Ive placed so much distance between us.
I hope you realize my flakiness has nothing to do with you and everything to do with my anxiety.
I love spending time together.
I love being around you.
But sometimes, my anxiety makes it impossible for me to express those emotions to you.
Im sorry my fear of rejection has made me seem heartless at times.
Its because Im worried you wont answer me.
Its because Im worried youll come up with an excuse to avoid me.
Sometimes, I have a hard time answering texts because I care about saying the right thing.
Im sorry my anxiety has put distance between us.
I never want you to feel like Ive forgotten about you.
I never want you to feel like I dont care.
Im sorry about the times when I kept my problems to myself instead of turning to you for advice.
Im sorry about the times when I went missing for weeks instead of sending you an update text.
Im sorry about all the times I was a shitty friend because you deserve so much better than that.
Im working on stopping my anxiety from pulling me away from people like you, people who deserve more.
