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Updated 8 years ago,August 27, 2017
Im scared my mental illness makes me unlovable.
Its a statement I hate writing and a sentence I hate thinking about.
But its how I feel.
Twenty20 / @gabrielleamontree
The truth is, when I tell the people Im dating it usually starts out OK.
They seem to understand and accept this is a part of me, but it isnt all me.
Ive had exes tell me they cant make me feel better because Im letting these issues consume me.
Ive had exes venture to tell me how to manage my illnesses even though theyve never experienced it themselves.
All I want, all I truly want, is someone just to love me through it.
Thats the part that is sometimes lost on potential partners.
Twenty20 / @gabrielleamontree
I dont need someone to fix me.
I go to therapy.
I take my medication.
What I do need is for someone to just be there when things get hard.
I know all of these things but it doesnt mean Im unlovable or incapable of giving love.
Because I so am.
I know I am.
I am able to just be there for someone when theyre having a really, really bad day.
And Im able to empathize, not sympathize or compare, when talking to someone about their problems.
So, Ive been with people who dont get me or my mental health.
But no one is perfect, and I am no exception.
