That arent bringing me hope.
That arent pushing me to be a better person or inspiring me to stand after Ive fallen down.
Imtrusting Godto take my feet and guide me.
Bryan Apen
Im exhaling anxiety and fear and allowing whatever comes to come.
Im releasing my tight grip on everything Ive known and embracing all that lies ahead, new and untouched.
Im going to smile, even when Im faced with doubt.
Im going to trust, even when I dont have the answers.
I will stand bravely.
I will push back.
Bryan Apen
I will be proud of my skin and soul.
Ones that hold me back, rather than build me.
Ones that are no longer mine to keep.
I will accept that love is meant to be felt, but not always forever.
And I will no longer carry pain or bitterness from the old into the new.
Im not going to walk around with my pain on my chest like a label.
Im going to start over, start fresh.
Because there will always be something wrong, but infinitely more reasons to smile.
And I will spend time building myself and others, rather than be continually broken down.
Instead of allowing mydefeat to define me, Im going to write my own self-definition story.
And Im going to put the past in the past.
Instead of looking back, I will look forward.
I will create new ideas and new paths to walk.
I will remind myself that my best laid plans might fall to ruin, and thats okay.
God has a bigger and better one.
That arent bringing me hope.
That arent pushing me to be a better person or inspiring me to stand after Ive fallen down.
Imreleasing my holdon love that isnt reciprocated, or respect that isnt given.
In this new year, Im letting love, and hope, and new beginnings in.
