Last year, I cancelled plans a million times.
I backed out of social situations.
I texted instead of called.
Garin Chadwick
I pushed people away.
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Updated 6 years ago,January 14, 2019
I dont want to be the quiet girl anymore.
In 2019, I am going to break from my comfort zone.
I am not going to let my anxiety win.
I am going to place myself into uncomfortable situations to test my strength.
I am going to practice using my voice.
I am going to train myself to become an optimist.
It would be easier to give into my doubts.
It would be easier to accept my situation.
But I am choosing to fight against my situation, against my worries, against my anxiety.
I am guaranteed to have hard times ahead.
There are going to be bathroom breakdowns.
There are going to be screaming sessions with my pillow.
There are going to be bad days but I cannot let them convince me to give up.
It is better than locking my bedroom door and sobbing about how lonely I have become lately.
I am exhausted from beating myself up over every wrong move.
My anxiety has slowly been destroying me.
It has been stealing my friendships, my self-confidence, my chance at personal growth.
This year, I am going to follow through on my promises.
I am going to pick up the phone.
I am going to find the strength to socialize.
In 2019, I am not going to let my anxiety win.
I am not going to be a bystander in my own storyline.
I am not going to huddle in the back of the room and complain about how nobody notices me.
In 2019, I am going to congratulate myself on every small victory.
Every time I answer an email instead of leaving it in my inbox for a month.
Every time I answer a phone call instead of letting it go straight to voicemail.
Every time I smile at a stranger instead of avoiding their eyes.
I am going to use little stepping stones to lead me toward bigger ones.
In 2019, I am going to step outside my comfort zone.
I am going to do what my anxiety has been begging me to avoid.
